Depression; I don't have anything to live for, why do I keep living?

YOU are fine, it is ok to try make up, it is ok to dye your hair. Just be You do what you like as long as you do not hurt anybody Ok to be, ok to try , ok to enjoy be you.Find a hobby, an interest you love. If you like fashion, go for it, ot became a beautician At the library you can borrow all sorts of books and videos about clothes, fashion etc. try see what you like to be. Do not hurt anyone, but try other things, it is ok to discover. Good luck.